bittersweet

since the boy left, we've been sending texts to each other every day... keeping in touch, as best we can..
he's still sitting in kuwait, in the dust and heat, waiting for his transport back to the sandpit...
he's trying to enjoy the relative "peace and quiet" of the base he's at before he has to go back to the bs and craziness of the FOB.

this time is incredibly bittersweet for me
i adore getting his messages... every time my phone beeps my heart jumps in excitement and i scramble to read the note from my man... because... he makes me laugh, makes me smile, makes me cry, makes me sigh...

it's so good to know that he feels EXACTLY the way i do
i miss him so much that my heart aches and i'm like a junkie going through withdrawal ... he IS my drug...
i miss his skin
his smell
his lips
his arms around me
his cute feet
his warm hands
his dazzling smile (he can get away with anything if he flashes that smile at me)
his wonderful laugh (it makes me laugh when he does - every time!)
i miss making him breakfast
and lunch
and dinner
and holding his hand while we walk around the mall
driving in my car - his hand on my leg, giving me a squeeze every now and then...
seeing him looking at me, out the corner of my eye...
i miss the jokes and the play fights and the wrestling and tickling and laughing
i miss his laugh SO MUCH
i miss his voice... so delicious and sexy - reaches through my ear right down to my toes...
i miss hearing him say my name, calling me sweet things... telling me how much he loves me...

just normal, every day things
i will never take it for granted
we've had so little time together - but each time we ARE together, it's like we were never apart - we just click in place.
we fit.

so his messages make my heart SOAR.. but they also make me hurt... because i'm half a person without him... i feel empty and restless and lost...

but i know he feels the same - which makes it so much better, so much easier to get through the day.

i love him more than ANYTHING.
sometimes i can't believe that he loves me. that i am such a lucky woman.

ok.
mush over.
you can look again!