6 posts tagged “work”

Some things to keep me occupied in the next few weeks/months...

1) Find Wacom and get cracking on the 99 Designs thing. Maybe make some money. (Thanks, Ness, for the link)
2) Renew passport (expires in Nov '09, but it takes a looooong time to get done these days) Home Affairs. That should be fun. I don't even know where it is these days...
3) Study AFAST and ASVAB. Seriously. Going to ace the AFAST (no pun intended). Will need to brush up on my maths and science. And learn American system of measurements etc. Blah. Silly Americans.
4) Get books from the garage - I have shelves, now I must put them to use, damnit. There's a photography book, my N+ and I want to find my LoTR.
5) Get a new tattoo or 3. Not the Big One - going to get that one with the Boy.
6) Write letters (maybe start up with LWT again... ) and send the Boy some more packages, when I know his new address for his new FOB.
7) Make money and Save.
8) Finish paying off debts.
9) Go to shows, but choose the ones I want. No more standing from 8am to 6pm anymore, sorry. Been there, done that. Earned my dues. I'm most grateful to all the people who have welcomed me back and told me that I have been missed. It means a lot.
10) Start running (find pouch for Zune and keys, for my arm - I can't stand running with things in my hands) and get control of my body again. Riding 2 horses, once a week, is just not cutting it. My abs have disappeared. I am sad about that. Very sad. Something must be done.
11) Archive the show backups on my brothers portable hdd. I've had it too long. The shows are old, they need to go onto DVD and get filed away.
12) Keep dreaming. I have so many things I want to do. I _can_ do them.

which is apparently not something Americans understand...
perhaps if i say crossing fingers?

well either way, that's what i am doing...

holding thumbs that my camera sells, soon...
holding thumbs that AP gets back to me, soon...
holding thumbs that clients pay me, soon...
it's just a couple, but it's a few hundred bucks, which is always a good thing, yeah?

happily i got to talk to the boy this evening - while watching Over The Hedge, the Hammy moment ('it never eeeeeeeeeeends.... *zooooooooooooooom*... it never ends that way tooooooooooo....") so i was smiling already.. and then i saw him online :)

he misses me... YAY! glad to hear that, because i miss him too...
some days more than others - depending on how busy i am.. if my mind gets time to dwell on it or not...
he's safe where he is.. well as relatively safe as he can be, anyway
probably safer than i am! hah!
it sounds like he has it pretty good there, though - which is super cool.
his own room, internet access, some responsibility to keep him busy, cool toys too
i can't wait for photos!

i've been working out too much - the muscles around my belly are getting a little _too_ large for my liking... it's muscle, but because i'm already "well-covered'.. it tends to look like fat, under tshirts, etc, because it bulges out!
so i'm going to take it a little easy on the crunches and heel taps for a while... just concentrate on the skipping and the running (hah! that sounds so funny!) and also going to swim when i start house sitting for susan, in their lovely big warm pool.. can't wait, actually...
last time i stayed there over the summer, i swam every evening and i got pretty tanned and toned - was very cool. and you don't even FEEL it (at first anyway!) which is even better.

braved the crazy, dodgy areas of cape town today, to go renew my drivers license - took far less time than i thought it would, thankfully... altogether, i was gone for about an hour and a half, including driving time. which isn't bad at all.

had another dream about cutting my hair the other night (when i eventually fell asleep... really been struggling recently) and i'm wondering what it means...
i'm not talking pretty hairstyled kinda cut... i'm talking hacked off with a pair of scissors, all crazy. and the first time i dreamt it, i also then shaved my head after that... but not the second time i dreamt it... strangely enough.

anyone have any ideas on what it means?
i guess i should google.
google will know.
google is king.
or queen.
depending on your outlook on life.

need to get to the mall tomorrow, to buy something important.
really REALLY hope my camera sells soon.

hold thumbs people, please.

night night.

The bank annoyed me yesterday.
They "suspended" my credit card, because i missed a payment (R250...) by 3 days.
I've been with this SAME bank, SAME branch, for 26 years.
And they have the nerve to send me a rude sms and shut my account down?????

I was not amused.

I sent them a rude sms back - there was mention of poop flinging and waving of hands.

I retried my ff order this morning, and VOILA it worked.

The power of Going Apeshit.

Slowly catching up with all my orders, paperwork and printing.
Sent all my jumbos to ff to print (the above order)(over 300!) and now i must just do cds.
7 of them. But MOSTLY "new" shows... so i will have them accessible.... a couple of ancient archived shows though...
I'm gradually getting back to a good place though.

Now, of course, I have the Nelson's Creek Eventing weekend photos to sort!! But i'm not panicking about it... i will just get to it as i get to it.
My orders are far more important right now - some of the people have been waiting since March! (late march, sure, but still MARCH!!) and i hate letting people down.

What a weekend it was, too.
And Jamie's 21st on Saturday night as well...

i was bloody exhausted... and then the stomach bug struck, while i was tired and vulnerable, at 4am on monday morning.
man oh man was i in pain. throat was raw from throwing up! weak and wobbly.
missed my ride on Cuppi :(
but will ride him Wednesday morning, i'm sure!
Got A.T tomorrow too...
I need it.
especially after the last 2 weeks of misery.

oh man i love my soldier boy.
just ADORE him.
thick and thin, baby. my heart is yours.
forever and ever.
no matter what.

making plans making plans...

still don't think i will able to make enough money to get that ticket to Hawaii in June...
i'm trying really hard... but i don't think it's going to happen...

don't think he cares, actually.

we've been kinda... miscommunicating recently.
i don't know.

but i'm Thinking Like A Boy, as was suggested.
Getting On With My Life, as i was told to.
Not Worrying About Him, as demanded.
My lesson was learnt.
Haven't told him I miss him.
Haven't told him I love him.
Not waiting online for him.
Not running after him.
Acting like I don't care.
The way he does.

but it doesn't seem to work - because now he's mad with me for being 5 minutes too late getting online.
first i'm told that i mustn't "worry about him", and that his issues/bad days are "none of my business"
so i back off.
and then i get called at 6:30am, told that he will be online "in about an hour, hour and a half"and that he's had a really "crappy godawful day"
so i go back to sleep for a little bit (not that i sleep much these days - brain too noisy) and get on at 8am, but have to help my aging dog outside (her back was a little sore, so she needed help standing up and getting outside - she's ok now) and when i come back... i get a message "thanks for being online" and he's gone offline.
how snarky.
how mean.
i was 5 minutes late.

so.
nothing i can do about it, and i'm not apologising.

*shrug*
he confuses me.

but he says _I_ am strange?

anyhoo.
a friend, who happens to be a recruiter for an international agency, has taken my cv into his careful care and is looking for international jobs for me... US specific, but also Canada, Cayman Islands.... and... Hawaii...
Not holding my breath (although he said my CV is pretty impressive - but i want photographic work, not IT related...)
but he says that their turnaround time is pretty damn quick and what's my "pack up and go timescale" ?

3 to 6 months he says is average.
I'm petrified. and i haven't told my mum yet either.

so now i wait.
should i tell the boy or not?
do i bother?
it's not a decision i made just for him.... i might not even end up near him!
I've been wanting to go overseas (to Canada more specifically) for a long time now.
i feel suffocated and boxed in here. and everything is so expensive.
i mean i LOVE what i do... but i want to expand my horizons... see what ELSE i can do with my photography...
i'm going to be famous. cocky as that sounds, i just know i am going to be.
this is what i am meant to do.
it sits right with me.

ok..
so
i got on the scale the other morning, in all my riding gear (jods, boots, chaps, jacket) and i weighed less than i did, while standing naked on the scale, about a month ago...

i've lost another kg.
while this is SUPER, and i'm well pleased...
it's also a little... scary...
i've changed nothing, done nothing new - in fact i've been far more idle in the last month or so (house sitting needy dogs that meant i couldn't go anywhere, or ride or anything) and eaten far too much (boredom) than before...

perhaps i really have just kicked up my metabolism a notch?
i'll keep an eye on it.

i am now at my goal weight.
anything lost after this is just bonus points. :)

no word from the boy, all weekend. not a whisper.
but i don't care.
i wrote the email - just asking what his plans are, and if they include me - and now i'm leaving him alone.
the next move is all up to him.

i've done STACKS today - worked my ass off, and have some good results (already uploading the NRA eventing photos from Saturday.. so i've just got to start on Sunday's shots now, and there are less of them than Saturday!)

I'm feeling ... a little numb.
but ok.

My friend Wendy says that 8 is my lucky number (she knows these things) and this year, she has a feeling it's going to be all mine.
SO i have CLAIMED it!
2008 Is MY YEAR.

I just got a loan!!!!!! and a super repayment option on it too! It's amazing!
I'm getting a new camera, a new lens, fixing my car and paying off all my debts!!!

I'm still waiting for the email from my Marine though... BUT - I'm going to be both realistic AND positive about it...
he's a busy man (that much i know), perhaps he IS involved (which is disappointing, but if i know, then it's easier to move on) and maybe (just maybe) he does remember me and my email made him smile (i hope) and perhaps he is nervous?
He is younger than me, after all. And my email was kinda out of the blue!
So i'm giving him time (maybe he'll get a chance on the weekend?) and space and not going to bug him.

I'm going to get on with things - i've got lots to do! Lots of exciting work, and big shows coming up... i'll focus, for a change.

I'll pass the time chatting to my sweet buddy, TJ - with no strings for a change.

And life will move forward!

And now! On to the beach with my dogs!